begin a good person

I meant to type "being," but begin came out and seems more fitting. When will I be satisfied? Most days, the majority of days, almost every day I am satisfied and happy with my life. But some days feel off. These days feel off. Everything feels... off. This isn't where I want to be; this isn't what my life should look like. I want to be a good person. By that I don't mean good for society, good for other people, good for the world. I mean I want to be a better me, I want to be as good as I can be, I want to push myself and I want to struggle to feel alive. I want to be better; I always want to be better. I can be better. I can be stronger, faster, smarter, more efficient. I can also be more emotionally attuned to myself and others, more considerate, less selfish, more giving. But really, what's more important to me is to be more engaged, more respectful, more respected. I can be and I want to be more.